April 26, 2014. Ridgeland, Mississippi. Questions.

Some questions we will never know. For instance, the question of what happened mid year of 2013, when Andrew's business faltered? Did he run out of cash reserves? Did he lose interest or energy? And another question is why did Andrew did not ask for help? David would have helped him in a heartbeat, and I know something about building a business but he did not say a word. Even his good friends John, Jim and Bo were not aware of his distress. These things are mysteries that will never be solved. But somethings we do know. When Andrew could no longer look after the financial life of the family, he chose to end his life. It was Ken who first suggested the idea that Andrew was so embarrassed by his lack of financial success that he did the equivalent of falling on his sword, which is the true Japanese manner when you have let someone down. When Andrew started his business, for four years all went well, with the income stream going up comfortably every year. But something happened and Andrew did not ask for help. And now he is gone. Eventually we will remember the vitality that came from Andrew. His love of life and his family came through every interaction. Soon we will remember and smile. With Andrew, one of his great charms was that you never quite knew what he was saying or doing next. But at the moment, he has left a big hole in our lives, and we miss him. I am not writing another wee web log about Andrew. I have said everything I know to say. Now I must move along.